Finding a balance between her professional life, something that was necessary to pay the bills and take care of her sons, and her time spent with her sons was very difficult. On the one side, she wanted to bury herself in her work completely so that she didn’t have to think about the hole in her life that used to be filled by her husband. She wanted to keep her body moving so that her mind didn’t have time to think.
On the other hand, she didn’t want to lose anymore of her sons’ lives than she already had. She had missed months if not years of her eldest’s life. She knew that he still blamed her for the divorce between Warren and her. Mary had never been able to sit down and really talk it over with Terry and not talking about it had caused the rift to grow.
“Mary, let me help, you don’t have to work yourself to death for this.”
“No, Alex,” Mary sighed over the phone, “I need to work, you know that more than anyone else.”
“Mary, you’re missing the best years of Matt’s life, you don’t want to make the same mistakes that you made with Terry.”
Mary drew in a breath of air sharply, but said nothing as she carefully closed the cell phone in her hand.
She wondered if she’d ever find the balance that she needed in this life or if, when it did come, it would ever be allowed to last.
“Alex, you don’t understand,” she whispered to herself, the phone sitting on the table beside her, “My kind are not allowed to do anything other than make mistakes.”
The sun was high in the sky as she looked out the window, the rays beating down on her with a harsh glare as if to remind her of what she was even if she was no longer who she had been.
This was a combination of two prompts: the Dungeon Prompt: Balance and the Art of Succeeding in an All or Nothing World by Sreejit and the Light and Shade Challenge for this first Monday of the month.