That is not the woman I knew growing up, that is a woman desperate to get into heaven. –unknown
For me, the above quote is not quite correct. It’s not so much that she is desperate to get into heaven and more that she remembers her early days as a mother, when she didn’t really know what she was doing and let her emotions of anger, fear and frustration take over and is privately horrified at it. She wants to be different and not the way she was at first.
She wants to be better than she was and so is trying.
Because she wants her children and her grandchildren to remember her love and not her anger.