Listen to what I have to say
And keep in mind it doesn’t have to be this way.
Sitting here within this room
Trying to keep my head above the gloom.
Back against the wall
Really wishing my answers would fall.
Even when I wish they wouldn’t come
At least then I’d know just what you’ve done.
There never seems to be an end
How can I still call you friend?
Sometimes I really wonder
Just why you came around
And kept on coming
Trying to bring me down.
Why is it that you
Must tear me down
And only to feel better
Like you own the town.
I thought that what we had
Was something to last the years
But after all we’ve been through
All I have left is my tears.
So why should I keep fighting
Trying to work this out
When you don’t seem to care,
At me, you only shout.
I have always said
That the relationship is of the most import
But lately I’ve been wondering
If in this storm I’m just your port.
You come and rest conveniently
Whenever you are down
But the moment I’m the one in need
You’re suddenly out of town.
This isn’t a one-ended thing,
I am not here to help only you
And then when I need someone for me
You get to claim another thing to do.
It’s all or nothing at this point
I’m tired of you running around
Leaving me with the bill
While above the mountains you bound.
So make up your mind
And make a decision,
Because this agreement we had?
I’m going to make a revision.
So sit down for a moment
And decide if you want me in your life
Because all you have done
Is cause me no end of strife.
Will this be a new beginning?
Or instead will our friendship be ending?
Don’t hesitate to make that choice
Especially when you have a voice.
Circumstances will always change
Inside a person, don’t think it’s strange,
So keep in mind, it’s not all you
In making what you will live through.
Or what you’ll have to decide,
Not when there’s others on this ride.
There’s just been a lot going on today (all week really, but it culminated today for some reason.) I haven’t been up to writing until now and it’s mostly because of the kids and my sister wanting to play a little Dokapon Kingdom (video game where it’s like a board game with a little Dungeons and Dragons thrown in.) I feel a little better afterwards.
Sounds are still,
There’s no one around,
Or mayhap they’re tired of the bill?
Reaching out with soundless arms,
My eyes watch as the clouds approach.
It was almost too quiet, but real life didn’t come with background music.
I wonder often how it will all turn out.
So I must continue on without a doubt.
When you make a decision, for better or worse, it was still yours to make.
Can I withstand what will come about?
Oh, I shan’t sit with a moment of doubt!
My faith is given and trust as well,
I know that for some this is a farewell.
No, I must face this head on, and know that
Going through with my life while still at bat.
Follow along, not knowing the path.
At times, I am afraid, but I press forward despite it.
I am not alone on this path, yet only I can choose it.
To hold my head up and my hand out in front of me
Have kept me from only staring at my feet.
Faith is not just a feeling, it is a decision.