Not Without

For I have found

As a child raised by a mother

That life is never so clear cut

Having a father only every other week

Even as then I had no mother

Reality was that I was never really without

Listening quietly to the back of my mind

Especially in times of fear

Sinking into my lonely heart

Soothing whispers of love from On High


I have found that I don’t like the phrase ‘fatherless child’ or ‘motherless child,’ because I believe that all were born from Heavenly Parents who sent us down to Earth to have earthly parents and to learn and grow. So even when we live in homes with only one parent or the other, we still have Parents who love us and want to help.

It’s just that sometimes we need to learn to ask for that help.

Scream to be Heard

Have you ever just wanted

To scream out loud?

To shake your fist

Shove your way through the crowd?


Have you ever wanted

To be all alone?

Not completely surrounded

Packed up all at home?


Have you ever wanted

Time just to yourself?

Without having someone ask

For that thing next to you, on the shelf.


But then how would you know

What to do with yourself

If all of your time

Was spent solely on yourself


How would you know

Just how much they love you

If they didn’t immediately come

In and squeeze you to goo


When you find the need to shout

It usually means you want to be heard

No shoved quickly aside

Ignored  as just another in the herd.


Sometimes we need to be alone

That is true of all

But just as known

Is that we want others to catch us when we fall

I have recently (if you haven’t noticed) started looking back through some of the older Dungeon Prompts. I enjoy going back and writing them over again as well as re-reading some that I or others have written in the past. Sometimes it’s what you need to help yourself feel a little better (like this helped me when I was feeling just a little bit frustrated, okay, a lot). Sometimes they just make you laugh, because you needed something a little silly instead (though this one wasn’t silly…)

The point is, the Dungeon Prompts, for all that I thought at the time, aren’t one-time things. They are the kind of thing that you can go back and re-visit, just like friend, because that’s what they are. They’re to help us ‘dig deep into our souls’ and really, we want to be friends with ourselves, because when we’re not that’s just not a good place to be.

But sometimes it’s a place that we need to be in order to work things out. Sometimes you won’t like yourself and that was what you needed to realize that there were things you needed to work out. It doesn’t mean that you won’t ever like yourself again, because you will. If you want it enough, you will work through what’s caught you in the mud pit and you’ll get out again.

Doesn’t mean it won’t be hard work, because life is hard work no matter who you are or where you are. It’s just different for each person.

That doesn’t mean that it has to be a continuous thing to work through. There will be times and places and people that will give you a moment to collect yourself, to rest, before you have to get up and start going again.

This poem and little rant were brought to you by the Dungeon Prompt: Seeking Refuge.